justrun-.

i hate how i lose control when i'm standing in the kitchen, staring at cereal, bread and fruits. they sound like harmless foods but anything in large amounts is really bad. esp high carb, high sugar items. it's horrible cos i totally lose control of myself and after i've done all the damage i feel so horrible. (save for those few seconds when i get a seratonin rush) neh and the aftermath of all that.. is just ew. one horrible vicious cycle. it's so stupid cos it's happened so many times and results are really veh disgusting. so i must really really really do something about it before it's too late.

mrah. this usually happens when i'm emotionally unstable. taking my stress out on food. bad for the body. bad for my self esteem. bad for me overall.

hahah ok i prob sound like a nut cos i really don't hear of people with such experiences.. other than family members :D (giant grin at pence) wonder if it's genetic. ahhahaa.

dinner out with the family today was great (: hope the happy feeling will be enough to sustain me through the week. the week ahead is going to be hectic. full of late nights, early mornings, and lots of determination needed! i'm bringing ear plugs to sch just in case some places get too noisy (cough cough). haha i'm really not kidding. yay and i'm going to stock my bag with loadsa green tea bags :D how exciting! i will enjoy the challenge that awaits this week! it doesn't have to be stressful.. so i have to find a way to make it fun and exciting and enjoyable :D

if studying is analogous to training, then .. it really CAN be fun right? besides, it's these weeks where i can really enjoy myself. when it gets too close to the exams i get really panicky and my mind goes haywire (not saying that it doesn't already do so).

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [22:47]

and took [20080727] strides

it's the passion that drives you